Home is where our heart is!

Walking in the front door of our apartment with our precious little girl in tow, was such a sense of relief. We prepared ourselves for the long haul, I was ready to stay for weeks, thinking we would be spending Christmas in the hospital as a family, instead of the comfort of our home. I thought I wasn't going to be able to wake up Christmas morning without a sense of guilt. Guilt of having to pick who I was going to leave alone partially that day. A choice no parent should have to make, all of our kids should be with us at Christmas time, unless they are older and chose to be else where. Lily didn't chose this, we did not chose this, it chose us, God chose us. So we have excepted this all and try to make the best of it as we can.

Today had its ups and downs, the boys were beyond excited to be home, but I don't think as excited as we were, or in that case, as Lily was. Lily fell asleep on the way home, then was wide awake the moment we walked through the front door. She grinned the whole way up the stairs, while we were pulling her from the car seat, and while the boys sat on the floor and adored her. Chris and I decided that ALL the kids needed naps, and that we needed one too. Unfortunately there was so much to do around the house, a nap wasn't an option for me. Lily was laid down in bed after her prayers and she fell asleep a few moments later like she had never left home. She is such a trooper, you would never think by looking at her she had surgery 5 days ago. Unless you pull her top off and the evidence is clearly there. A stronger little lady then I could ever be.

The boys seem to be on a rebellious streak because they have been nothing short of little monsters. I say that with as much love as a mother can with a headache the size of the continental U.S. They wanted ALL of our attention today, not part of it, and when we redirected ourselves towards Lily they both would have melt downs and screaming fits that we didn't love them and how they wanted to go back to grandpa and grandma's. How special that made us feel, we tried over and over to explain to them that we would and will play with them, but mommy and daddy just needed to keep an extra special eye on Lily because she still has big boo boos on her chest. That if she fell or if she crawled, she could end up back in the hospital because of it None of this mattered, we were horrible parents and we were seeming to neglect them if both of us weren't playing with them at the same time. So what did we do???? We packed them all up and ran a quick errand to Walmart. They had a blast....leave it to my children to enjoy Walmart. When we got home they seemed to be in a better mood, they ate dinner then went to bed.

It is nice to be back on a familiar routine, or something that resembles it. It was nice to sit on my couch with Lily in my arms, with no lines. It was nice to lay her down in her bed tonight, it was nice to cook dinner in my kitchen, and it will be nice when I get to go to sleep in my bed,(As soon as I finish this). There is no other way to explain it, it is GREAT TO BE HOME....we all received an early Christmas present!

Thank you all for your prayers, Lily is a fighter, but you all helped with her fight. You all helped with our early Christmas present. God bless you ALL!

Sincerely
Jenna