Life Unscripted: UPDATE

The Day I Became a Heart Mother

The Day I Became A Heart Mother
One day my world came crashing down,
I'll never be the same.
They told me that my baby was sick.
I thought, "Am I to blame"?
I don't think I can handle this.
I am really not that strong.
It seemed my heart was breaking.
I have loved him for so long.
I will not give up on this child.
I will listen to your advice.
I will give my son any chance.
No matter what the price.
I will learn all that
I need To help my baby thrive.
I'll even use that feeding tube.
My child must survive!
Will he need a lot of therapy?
Will he gain the needed weight?
Please God, help me do this.
As I accept our fate.
When the monitors beep at night,
it serves as my reminder.
How many parents would love that sound.
Tomorrow I will be kinder.
As another Angel earns his wings
,I run to my baby's bed.
I watch him sleep for quite a while.
I bend down and kiss his head.
I cry for the parents whose hearts have been broken.
I look toYou wondering why?
Oh Lord,I just can't know your ways....no matter how I try.
And yet,I trust you hold his life,and guide us through each day.
My mind says savor each moment he's here,
but my heart begs,"PLEASE let him stay"!
From pacing the surgical waiting room,
to sitting by his bed.
From wishing for a good nights sleep,
to learning every med.
From wondering,"Will he be alright?",
to watching him reach out his hands.
With every smile my heart just melts,
despite life's harsh demands.
For all who see that faded line.
I look to them and smile.
You see my child is loved so much.
I would face ANY trial.
That scar I trace with my finger(It's the door to his beautiful heart).
God must have known how much I'd love him(Just as He loved him from the start).
A heart mom is always a heart mom.
Now wise beyond her years.
For those who have angels in heaven,
Our hearts share in all of your tears.
Every day I will try and remember,
I was chosen for him (and no other).
I will always embrace that beautiful day.......
When I became a"Heart Mother".

~Stephanie HustedMommy to Braeden
HLHS post Fontan
Carepage name: babyhusted

Thursday, December 11, 2008

UPDATE

First Incission was made at 8:40am, AZ time, we have yet to hear if she is on the Heart and Lung machine...aka. Bypass. They are thinking the surgery will be 6 hours, so we are looking to see her again at 2 or maybe 3. I dont have much to update for now. It took an hour to get all of her lines (IV's) in but other then that, things have seemed to go smooth for right now. So....... no news is good news!!
Jenna-Lilyana's Mama

ps...I forgot the USB cable at home, so I cant upload any pics today, but first thing tomorrow Chris will going home and getting that for me!

2 comments:

Avery said...: Here with you all the way.. Hoping and PRAYING everything goes perfect. She's being watched over right now..
You're so strong.. I would not be ready to do it all again right now, but strength is always given when you need it..
Can't wait til you have her back..
avery; December 11, 2008 at 10:02 AM
Mimi said...: We will be praying for you too!! Sending them off is always so difficult. She is darlng!; January 22, 2009 at 1:29 AM